Right Where I Need To Be

As I sit here on the couch, drinking my coffee and watching it snow outside, I can't help, but to be thankful. Thankful, that I can stay at home and work as a substitute teacher now and then. I do have a M.A. in Special Education, and I have taught as a special ed. teacher for 15 years, before resigning a couple years ago. You might wonder why I would resign when I have such an amazing career. The truth is, I needed to. Being a single mom with four children with special needs, made it hard to work full time, and to also be there when they needed me. I'm talking with sickness, conflicting schedules, and my own physical issues, I had to make a decision. I didn't know what I was dealing with, until after I resigned, but I knew that I was exhausted all the time. Every day, I struggled to get through my classes and stay awake. It was discouraging and very difficult. I wouldn't be diagnosed for another year, but I was finally diagnosed with idiopathic hypersomnia. After the diagnosis, I felt a little better, and it all made sense. There is no treatment though, and naps during the day, don't help. But, now I'm home and I can deal with it. There is also a lot of stress removed now from my life. I am home for my boys, and now I don't have to worry if they begin to get sick, because I won't miss work. I can rest assured, knowing that I can stay home with them and take care of them, like they need their Mama to do, when they aren't feeling well. Elijah has been home for the last three days, with a sinus infection. Today was his first day back to school. And it felt, so good to be home for my little guy. Jimmy also has a schedule that requires me to be home on Wednesdays and available to him on most Fridays. This year, my boys go to 4 different schools. All with different starting and ending times. There's no way, I could have juggled all of that before. Now, it's not a big deal. I've got it. Actually, God's got it.  So, it's not what I had envisioned, when I pursued my Special education degrees, but I wouldn't change a thing. I'm exactly where I want and need to be. Thank you Jesus once again, for showing me, that your plan is always better than mine.