One day.............

Liam is non-verbal. He makes all kinds of silly and very unique sounds, that I can't even replicate, but no words. When he gets hurt or very upset, he will cry and say: Mamamamama. That's the only time he makes that sound, and I would like to think. that he is calling me, but I really don't know for sure. That is the closest I have ever heard of him saying, a real word. I have never had a child that is non-verbal before. Even when I met Liam, I believed that he would talk one day. Of course, he would, I told anyone who asked. That was 4 1/2 years ago. I've come to accept that he may never say any word, ever. And, that's okay. But, it must weigh heavily on my heart sometimes, even when I am not aware, because every few months or so, I will have a dream. A dream, that Liam says one word. Just one. One time, I dreamed that he said: No. And I was so excited to hear his sweet voice, that I kept asking him to say it again and again and again. And then, I woke up. And I realized, that it had been just a dream. And for a moment, I was disappointed and a little sad. But, I put it out of my mind and went about my day with my silly boy, and his funny noises keeping me quite entertained. And months went by, and then again the other night, I had another dream. Liam said another word: Monkey. Yes, Monkey. LOL And, it was just like a child learning to say a new word, it wasn't completely accurate, but it was definitely: Monkey. And I laughed, and just like my previous dreams, I asked him to say it over and over. It was the cutest thing! Then, I woke up. 

It really is okay that he doesn't speak, but as a Mother, the sound  of my children's voices, is the best sound I'll ever hear. And for Liam, to say no, or monkey, or any word,  would be so amazing!  But, I tell myself, one day, I will get to hear his sweet voice, one day...... in Heaven. He'll talk my ear off one day, I'm sure of it. And, I'm looking forward to it. :) Until then, I'll enjoy my little squishy boy, who snorts, chirps, hums and giggles......and enjoy an occasional dream, of what's to come. Thank God, that he's mine. What a gift, he is.